Withdrawal..........Intense Nervousness...Extreme Anxiety.....Confused... Feeling Somewhat Incomplete....
Wandering Aimlessly.....Don't Know Which Way To Go... Which Way To Turn...Or Who To Turn To Or Talk To Help Me...
Help Me Get Out Of This State That I Am In...A State That I Have Found Myself In Over And Over Again...A State Of Hurt, Pain And Shame...Wondering When I’ll Be Tired Of This Game....
This Crazy Game Called Life.....The Life That I Have Led...Only Not Going Down The Right Path That Was Set...Set Before Me By The Most High.....
Then I Try To Wonder Why...Wonder Why I Cry...Why I Sigh... Wonder Why This Feeling That's Inside Me Won't Die..... Only To Realize It’s Because Of Me...Because Of Me Alone...It Was Me That Made The Choice....
The Choice To Get Caught Up In A Never-Ending Twisted Web Of Lies Hurt And Pain... Oh How Did I Ever Maintain;
Maintain The Mindset That Lasted For So Long, That It’s Deflected The Reality Of All That's Around Me..... The Reality Of Life..... The Reality Of Fear..... The Reality Of The Mess I’m In...How Damaged I’ve Been..... So Caught Up In This Tremendous Sin...How I Will Win.... If I Remain...Remain Caught Up.....
Trapped...Lost...Sunken Into The Abyss Of Sin ...No Way Out It Seems.....
But I Hear A Voice From Up Above; Calling My Name...Helping Me To Regain..... The Life That's Meant For Me...
A Life Of Wealth, Health And Prosperity....How I Yearn To Be There...Be On High...... In That Place Of Comfort...Up There By His Side....
But This Sin I’m In I Must Decide..... To Set Is Aside...So That I Can Abide With Him...The ONE Who Loves Me….REGARDLESS OF THE STATE I AM IN!
BY: Zinnia .A. Williams